Guardian Angel's Blog

[Guardian Angel]

We had pot luck at church yesterday.  While Sylas napped on Saturday,  I was able to bake a Lemon bundt cake and a Chocolate Chip Cookie bundt cake.  After I took him home, I put Northern beans, ham chunks and onions in the slow cooker and since Shawn was off and I didn't have him Sunday morning, I made a big pan of cornbread and some Chinese Cole Slaw before we left for church.

I always fill George's plate at the pot lucks to make sure he gets a balanced meal.  After the meal, I was in the kitchen helping clean up and he ate 4 pieces of the Chocolate Chip Cookie cake, which gave him diarrhea last night.  I was worn out and didn't wake up as usual when he got up so I found his adult diaper on the bathroom floor.  He had put on regular underwear.  Luckily I got to him before he made a mess in the bed and made him put on another diaper.  I have to call the doctor tomorrow and tell him that the diabetic meds didn't help the urinary problem.  I have no idea what they will do next, but we need to get to the root of the problem.  He is still having abdominal pain and since the intestines are in the same area as the bladder and he has had bloody stools, I think they should do a colonoscopy and an occult blood test.

I really, really want my life back and to be able to do the things we used to do.  I know that things are getting worse because yesterday he ask me how we met.  When he looks at me and says "who are you"  will I be able to cope?

[Guardian Angel]

It's Cotton Carnival week in Sikeston.  We used to enjoy going to the carnival every night, taking our lawn chairs and just sitting watching the people go by and visiting with friends while Shawn ran with his friends and rode all the rides.  We haven't been in years, but if it's warm enough I may take Sylas to the parade later on this morning, just to get out.

I went to bed at 11 PM and George was up and down all night again so I just decided to get up because I wasn't getting any sleep anyway.  My old tired worn out brain seeks some relief and sleep but I am not getting much of either.  The doctor said the next step is a Colonoscopy.  I guess we will see about scheduling one. 

[Guardian Angel]

I gave George a sleeping pill last night and he slept ALL night without getting up....It felt so good not to have my sleep interrupted!   After church we went over and watched Sylas and Shawn detailed the inside of my car.  George keeps the outside pretty clean....

I will be glad when the crops are all in.  I am suffering from allergies and can hardly breath.  I have used an inhaler more in the past week than I have all year and my voice is raspy.  I have been rubbing my chest with VICKS every night.  It helps.  They must be cutting Milo because that is usually what brings this on......  Lauren has to work again tomorrow so I will have the baby for a while.  The poor girl worked a double shift today.

[Guardian Angel]

Shawn was off this weekend so I only had Sylas a for a short period while he got a hair cut.  I fixed meatloaf, scalloped potatoes, green beans, tossed salad and pumpkin pudding and took them supper. 

I was awake every hour last night coughing and spitting.  At about 5 I drifted off to sleep and was awakened by George's crying.  He was confused and asking what was happening to him.  When I questioned him about what was wrong, he just kept saying he didn't know!  We had a short discussion about it and I thought he was calmer but he wasn't.  He started wondering around the house in his underwear, so I got him some sweats to put on, then he decided to lay down again but only for about 5 minutes.  For the next 2 hours he was up and down, looking at the clock and going to the B/R.  I finally gave up at 7 and got up, now he is on the couch, sleeping and I am wide awake......  I hope I can get a nap after church because I feel like a zombie.  I keep worrying that days like this will turn into the dreaded Sundown syndrome.

[Guardian Angel]

Discovered tonight that he has lost his house keys.  I have turned the house upside down and can't find a trace of them.  What next!!!!!!!!!!

[Guardian Angel]

Found the house keys.......   Then he lost his wedding band.  It slipped off his finger (he is so thin) at Shawn's when we took the baby home.  We found it but then on Sunday morning on the way to church, I noticed it was gone..... found it beside the bed so I put it in my jewelry box for safe keeping.  He hasn't even missed it.

For the past two weeks the urinary problem has disappeared, then yesterday, out of the blue, he started having problems again, so it's back to the Depends and pushing fluids.  I discovered he has been drinking the hot sodas we keep in the garage...... he has turned into such a sneak!

The doctor put me on Septra and Prednasone for a week.  I felt really good, but when I ran out I ran down again.  I have been taking Robitussin for the cough but I am still waiting for that freeze!

[Guardian Angel]

My bronchitis seems better, but now I am hoarse.  This is one of those days when I'd like to find a hole, crawl in and pull it in behind me!  I am so tired I am running on fumes.  I had Sylas overnight last night because Shawn had to work.  Sylas slept but I kept worrying about him because he was in bed with us, so I am running on about 4 hours of sleep.

In addition to eating to many desserts (because I was too busy to watch him) George didn't drink enough fluids on Thanksgiving day because we were at the VFW all day and now his urinary problem is back and he's running to the john every 15 minutes.  It seems to go away for 2-3 weeks and then come back for a week or so.  All the time he has it he is stuck on stupid.  It exacerbates his mental problems and leaves me with the effects of having to tell him things over and over and over until I want to scream.

I am cleaning house and with low energy, it's difficult.  The things I need to do, like write my Christmas letter, address cards, decorate the tree, bake the turkey Shawn got for Thanksgiving, get the outside decor down from the attic, etc, etc, etc, keep weighing on my mind and making things worse.  I need to give this poor old semi fried brain the relief it craves and allow it to go stark raving mad!!!!!!!!